So, last week was a bit of wobbly, weird week for me.
It started off great. I graduated from my two-year Dru Meditation Teacher training. I felt refreshed after a week off. I was looking forward to getting back to my yoga teaching – with that exciting “new term” feel. I’ve got new classes and workplace yoga and mindfulness initiatives coming up.
But then I found myself not sleeping very well. My mind wouldn’t shut up. A Facebook post irritated me and I let it get under my skin.
I felt the “not good enough” button well and truly pressed. Read more…
“Promise yourself today to be so strong that nothing can disturb your peace of mind” ~ Christian D Larson
Peace of mind is an act of strength.
It does require will power. The brain, the mind is programmed to scan, to roam, to wander. To look out for danger. Trouble is, when there’s no immediate danger to attend to the mind will wander off into ruminating on the past or flit off to worrying about the future.
So we need to use our inner strength to choose to where we focus; to bring our attention back into the present moment.
We can do this by anchoring our awareness on the breath; or we can practise mindfulness of the senses – tuning into where we can feel our body in contact with the ground or the seat; hear the sounds around us and so on.
But know our mind *will* always want to wander.
So choose to be strong and choose where you allow your focus and thoughts to rest.
Why oh why does our culture glorify busy-ness so much? We’re supposed to struggle, to push through our comfort zones, to do, to achieve, to climb the ladder. Blah, blah, blimmin’ blah. Whatevs. We’re not meant to want to relax in calm contentment.
Well do you know what? I can’t be bothered. It all sounds way too overwhelming and tiring for me, sensitive soul that I am.
I’m not lazy. I work hard – and yes, I find myself pushing too (and wind up exhausted when I do).
So I’m standing up for slowness. For gentleness. For kindness. For sensitivity. For time to relax and notice the simple pleasures in life. Read more…
At 7am today I heard the news: the UK had voted to leave the European Union.
I felt sick. I felt shaky. I couldn’t quite believe it (although, sadly, part of me could believe it all too readily).
These last few hours I’ve felt all sorts. A lot of anger – at the lies which had been told during the campaign and anger at people for believing them. I’ve called that 52% of the British public who voted leave stupid, narrow-minded and bigoted. I’ve asked my husband where shall we emigrate to, because I don’t want to live in this narrow-minded country anymore.
It’s been quite an emotional morning! I’ve felt sick, angry, ashamed and very judgmental.
But you know what? I don’t want to feel this way.
It’s always in our power to decide which thoughts to follow.
So I decided I wanted to try and understand what’s going on. Read more…